just blabbing just for today

hmmm
im not quite sure what i want to blog about yet
but i'll think of something.
We'll lets just discuss my day

~I slept luxuriously at shon and shauns last nite
i can get comfortable in that bed. I always dream so hard.
~I had a very good meeting with my video teacher.
shes awesome. and very cute ;) lol
~Lunch with shaun was awesome
(i realized im spending alot of time with her and i love it!)
~Paid Dannie back
i like her smile
~Got a hug chunk of my painting done
yay for not procrastinating
~Making very steady progress toward my video
~pretty much got a job with the Federal Park Service
hell chea. that s means new nose ring and actually wearing my hair out
yikes lol.

I realized the other day that my creation dream woman hasnt found me yet because I'm not done creating her. And although i want her to be perfect, I'm having to learn the virtue of patience during this time. Maybe everyone I'll meet until then will be bits and pieces of her until shes assembled.

I need to read my tarot cards. theres some guidance im looking for. and i also need to talk to God. I miss him and all his awesomeness. Like forreal. God and I have a very... personal relationship, as should everyone bc God created you and you create him. Your God is whoever you go to for comfort and peace in your head. Everyone asks something higher than them to intercede. Hoping that something greater than us can control and change the things that we feel that we cant. And because we believe these things change. because WE believe we can. And on my metaphysical tip, because we acknowledge and understand that there is something higher than our understanding (maybe the 11th dimension, or the cause of the first basic attraction, God, Nirvana; ect) we have the ability to tap into the things greater than us. hmmmmm things to ponder. I'll elaborate on several of these things later. Im gonna go to sleep

oh btw
I'm gonna cut back on this greenery...