So since this is my blog i guess i can talk as much as I want. Esp since I doubt many people look at my blog any damn way lol. But recently I have had so many thing point to the idea that you can speak things into existence. So with that being said, I want to type this... into existence. There is no way something can be so clear in my minds eye and it not be real. I hope these day dreams are visions of the future. Before I go into that I will give a brief explanation as to why i think I can speak somthign into existence.
If you want to go into the whole "10-dimensions/we are but a thought" thing then here it is. Since everything was created by an attraction/fusion/explosion so long ago, the end has already occured. the end result of the big bang has already happened, were just moving so slow that we havent been there yet. SO with that being said, the ending has already happened therefore everything that happens in the universe will only result in the ending occurring perfectly. And since it will end perfectly, everything that lead up to it has happened perfectly. If you want something hard enough, you will get it, if you need it. Because if you need something you will get it because the end ends perfectly meaning all needs are satisfied. the is such a crude, consice, and unclear way of explaining it and if you havent already gotten into metaphysics and the bang-crunch theory then that explanation will make no sense to you lol. But i digress.
Now that thats out the way here it is. I am creating her right now.
She is tall
fair to light skinned (not that i have a preferrence just when i see her in my minds eye thats how she looks)
soft hair that forms very free forming locks that come to her breastline
shes medium build
perfect smile
beautiful eyes
snazzy dresser
she'll probably have an interesting heritage. Maybe south african, maybe from the south
extremely intelligent, hopefully smarter than me. I like to be challenged
a welcoming embrace
a comforting prescence
and understanding mind
and a free sense of humor
she can plan well and take care of business
definitely and artist of some kind
she'll love to travel
love to see new things
is a spiritual being
interested in art
willing to try new foods
can get down with mental stimulation
ect ect
So when another mind reads this
and another mind reads this it will become more real in my universe
and she'll come to me.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
funny thing about beautiful things.
the further away beautiful things are,
the closer they are to the places where we are familiar and comfortable with them being,
the more beautiful they are
like clouds
I wish to cast these clouds away from the top of the skyscrapers
send them back where they belong
far up in the stratosphere
I always loved big fluffy beautiful clouds
I always wanted to lay upon them
spin inside them
but when they get close
they become fog
grey
opaque
hiding the blue that was once synonamous with their beauty
Am I being selfish?
or is it ok to admire beauty from afar and still long for it yet never truely want it?
Maybe its the illusive nature of a cloud that makes it beautiful.
maybe the beauty is in the longing
Because when a cloud gets too close, you want nothing more than to send it to a place where you can never have it.
the closer they are to the places where we are familiar and comfortable with them being,
the more beautiful they are
like clouds
I wish to cast these clouds away from the top of the skyscrapers
send them back where they belong
far up in the stratosphere
I always loved big fluffy beautiful clouds
I always wanted to lay upon them
spin inside them
but when they get close
they become fog
grey
opaque
hiding the blue that was once synonamous with their beauty
Am I being selfish?
or is it ok to admire beauty from afar and still long for it yet never truely want it?
Maybe its the illusive nature of a cloud that makes it beautiful.
maybe the beauty is in the longing
Because when a cloud gets too close, you want nothing more than to send it to a place where you can never have it.
Friday, August 28, 2009
sometimes i just wish
that i could erase you from everything
from the hearts of everyone i love
you didnt exist before
at least not to anyone that mattered
to me
you are a cancer
from the hearts of everyone i love
you didnt exist before
at least not to anyone that mattered
to me
you are a cancer
Thursday, May 28, 2009
The Thurday Night Feature
The evening was long
My guesses were true
You saw me see you
That something you said
The timing was right
The pleasure was mine
The time and the place
The look on your face
Sincerest eyes
If you're ready or not
The state of our hearts
There's no time to take
you were beautiful
so beautiful it was almost magical
your sking glistened with luminescent beads of sweat from the summer sun and from that moment on i knew id never forget you
like a magnet you attracted me.
I watched each sylable reluctantly fall from your soft lips bc even they still wanted to be inside of you
Your own words didnt want to ever leave you
the way you captivated the audience with you charisma reminded me of the tide to the moon
You swooned me with the brittle ballad of our kindred heart break
from the start we both had broken hearts
the timing could not have been more right
and you could not have been more of a stranger yet i saw no danger in your eyes
though the bond between you and I will last forever
The stint of time of our prescence in time would begin and end in one night
We took off into space
Danced among the stars
till the moon was ours
YOu looked me in the eyes
then held me so tight
feeling was right
We were caught by the light
Held on the day
'Till it became hours
The minutes went by
The cab is outside
There's no time to take
your locks swayed to the beat of my body
my scars told you stories of lessons learned
with my hands i rubbed the pain from your sore heart
while your lips spoke bittersweet peace into my lonliness
you held my hand wanting this moment to last forever
and although the only thing between our skin was the fabric of time
fate had other plans for us
see just for one night, we were both healed
just for one night i was the woman of your dreams
and you were my queen
those moments were just a small glimpse of heaven
but we both knew that at a quarter to 2 your plane would be departing
and along with your luggage you would be taking my serenity
until you came back to me
or at least back to dc
when you'd feature again
My guesses were true
You saw me see you
That something you said
The timing was right
The pleasure was mine
The time and the place
The look on your face
Sincerest eyes
If you're ready or not
The state of our hearts
There's no time to take
you were beautiful
so beautiful it was almost magical
your sking glistened with luminescent beads of sweat from the summer sun and from that moment on i knew id never forget you
like a magnet you attracted me.
I watched each sylable reluctantly fall from your soft lips bc even they still wanted to be inside of you
Your own words didnt want to ever leave you
the way you captivated the audience with you charisma reminded me of the tide to the moon
You swooned me with the brittle ballad of our kindred heart break
from the start we both had broken hearts
the timing could not have been more right
and you could not have been more of a stranger yet i saw no danger in your eyes
though the bond between you and I will last forever
The stint of time of our prescence in time would begin and end in one night
We took off into space
Danced among the stars
till the moon was ours
YOu looked me in the eyes
then held me so tight
feeling was right
We were caught by the light
Held on the day
'Till it became hours
The minutes went by
The cab is outside
There's no time to take
your locks swayed to the beat of my body
my scars told you stories of lessons learned
with my hands i rubbed the pain from your sore heart
while your lips spoke bittersweet peace into my lonliness
you held my hand wanting this moment to last forever
and although the only thing between our skin was the fabric of time
fate had other plans for us
see just for one night, we were both healed
just for one night i was the woman of your dreams
and you were my queen
those moments were just a small glimpse of heaven
but we both knew that at a quarter to 2 your plane would be departing
and along with your luggage you would be taking my serenity
until you came back to me
or at least back to dc
when you'd feature again
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I Have AIDS: A Conciet (an extended metaphor)
you entered my life through pleasure
undetected bc i was unprotected
foolish and in the bliss of the moment
you then attach yourself to my t cells
my immune system
the people that are there heal me
and keep me healthy
you attach to them
insert yourself in them
and then
reprogram them
to wreak havoc on my body and my mind
until you are in control of all my defenses
and its visible in my physical that i was attacked from within
and all my t cells now produce more of your destruction
and i have noone to blame but myself
and there is no cure
undetected bc i was unprotected
foolish and in the bliss of the moment
you then attach yourself to my t cells
my immune system
the people that are there heal me
and keep me healthy
you attach to them
insert yourself in them
and then
reprogram them
to wreak havoc on my body and my mind
until you are in control of all my defenses
and its visible in my physical that i was attacked from within
and all my t cells now produce more of your destruction
and i have noone to blame but myself
and there is no cure
There is No Modern Romance
Many people know
that many of my "friends"
have been shitty friends indeed
i already dnt have the biggest fan club
and this note sure wont make it any better
and the funny thing is, although this note isnt directed to one friend in particular
it kinda is
but it kinda isnt
oh well fuck the technicalities
im just gonna speak from my core.
if you take offense to it
then it was meant for you to.
if it doesnt offend you
then you werent one of the people im talking about
To start
you have unmistakenly woven yourself
into the very fabric of my existence
or more like a bed bug
a colony of bed bugs
in my mattress
my bed pad
my fitted sheet
covers
pillows
dust ruffle
all that shit lol
and so now,
i have to burn my whole damn bed
fuck
but they said, if you lay down with dogs
or bitches in this case
you wake up with fleas
next
i knew you would always be there
but this is dispicable
and i and so many others are dissapointed in you
but i know
you dont give a fuck
so throw away our friendship bond and understanding
please
i always told you i would NEVER make you choose
and thats bc i didnt think i would have to
if i was to ever see him on the street
i would look at him with disgust
bc of the ways he hurt you
and bc i love you
but to take him in
and become his best friend
chill with him on the regular
call him and never call you
when for years i talked shit about how horrible he was to you
would be...
disrespectful
but everyone doesnt think like me
but ive come to terms that everything in my past life has bed bugs
and i cant sleep there if i dnt wanna be in pain the next morning
so like i said
i wont make u choose
i hope u find happiness
hug me wen u see me
and keep it moving
and keep each other
next
i find it so funny that that you all come and go
in and out of my life
when it conviencences you
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
dont run to me bc friendships
that i told you from the beginning were parasitic
and false
turn to shit
lol its crazy to see how many text i get from you now
how my phone rings now
but like i never have,
i wont hold anything against you
but wen yall are good again
and you fade again
make sure your gone for good
bc that hurts me
esp when im ALWAYS there for you
supporting your dreams
being the voice of reason in your life
financing your adventures
even wen i cant finance my own
remember...
next
you dissapeared like it was nothing
so much so to the point where you prob wont read this
and although i said i didnt give a fuck to others
i did
and i miss you
but i guess i didnt fit into your new lifestyle
with your plastic friends
with superficial concerns
so fuck it.
next
i hope drugs havent made me paranoid
but im clearly a laughing stock to the 2 of you
anything different from he norm
is a joke to you
and i felt like you laughed at me and not with me the whole time
i dont live the same way you do
my exterior does not define me
and material things are not my life
so u asked how do i dissapear the way i do...
bc i dnt like to feel like im a fucking joke
i have more to say,
but i wont
ill leave it alone
im only tagging people,
so that the people who need to see it will
so if ur tagged
it more than likely has nothing to do with you....
but you have heard me talk about this before
that many of my "friends"
have been shitty friends indeed
i already dnt have the biggest fan club
and this note sure wont make it any better
and the funny thing is, although this note isnt directed to one friend in particular
it kinda is
but it kinda isnt
oh well fuck the technicalities
im just gonna speak from my core.
if you take offense to it
then it was meant for you to.
if it doesnt offend you
then you werent one of the people im talking about
To start
you have unmistakenly woven yourself
into the very fabric of my existence
or more like a bed bug
a colony of bed bugs
in my mattress
my bed pad
my fitted sheet
covers
pillows
dust ruffle
all that shit lol
and so now,
i have to burn my whole damn bed
fuck
but they said, if you lay down with dogs
or bitches in this case
you wake up with fleas
next
i knew you would always be there
but this is dispicable
and i and so many others are dissapointed in you
but i know
you dont give a fuck
so throw away our friendship bond and understanding
please
i always told you i would NEVER make you choose
and thats bc i didnt think i would have to
if i was to ever see him on the street
i would look at him with disgust
bc of the ways he hurt you
and bc i love you
but to take him in
and become his best friend
chill with him on the regular
call him and never call you
when for years i talked shit about how horrible he was to you
would be...
disrespectful
but everyone doesnt think like me
but ive come to terms that everything in my past life has bed bugs
and i cant sleep there if i dnt wanna be in pain the next morning
so like i said
i wont make u choose
i hope u find happiness
hug me wen u see me
and keep it moving
and keep each other
next
i find it so funny that that you all come and go
in and out of my life
when it conviencences you
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
dont run to me bc friendships
that i told you from the beginning were parasitic
and false
turn to shit
lol its crazy to see how many text i get from you now
how my phone rings now
but like i never have,
i wont hold anything against you
but wen yall are good again
and you fade again
make sure your gone for good
bc that hurts me
esp when im ALWAYS there for you
supporting your dreams
being the voice of reason in your life
financing your adventures
even wen i cant finance my own
remember...
next
you dissapeared like it was nothing
so much so to the point where you prob wont read this
and although i said i didnt give a fuck to others
i did
and i miss you
but i guess i didnt fit into your new lifestyle
with your plastic friends
with superficial concerns
so fuck it.
next
i hope drugs havent made me paranoid
but im clearly a laughing stock to the 2 of you
anything different from he norm
is a joke to you
and i felt like you laughed at me and not with me the whole time
i dont live the same way you do
my exterior does not define me
and material things are not my life
so u asked how do i dissapear the way i do...
bc i dnt like to feel like im a fucking joke
i have more to say,
but i wont
ill leave it alone
im only tagging people,
so that the people who need to see it will
so if ur tagged
it more than likely has nothing to do with you....
but you have heard me talk about this before
Slicing the Fabric of Time
listen to this while you read:
http://www.imeem.com/jukeboxmusic19/music/wR3lI6oZ/mirah-exactly-where-were-from/
This isnt permanent
Life is all too transient
and I am happy
people are at best seasonal
which is good considering my soul likes this weather
i listen to love songs
bc i love songs
and i feel every word
bc i know
my love will come
so i wait patiently
patient like im at Rhode Island Ave Station
in the best weather
with the sweetest breeze
waiting for the last train
bc i know it will come
so until then, i talk to the people around me
observe the people on the streets
busying themselves with endless task
watching the other trains open close
come and go
and i'll be at peace
" I like it soft
i like it wet
i like my makeup in a mess
so i cry hard
let it fall
and i wont stop until my tears are all shed
SO HAPPY
SO HAPPY
SO HAPPY"
--lykke li "Let it Fall"
19 pounds lighter
and free from expectations
demands
and therefore dissapointment
i realized that i can shed my skin
and that skin is in the form of people
so many people
i love from a distance
bc they are miserable
i aint the type of company they should keep
cause i'll be too easy and breezy
to truly give a fuck
and thats the truth,
but i digress...
Since I originally deactivated my facebook
my motto has been
self discovery through introspection
and this summer will be a journey indeed
4 wheels and 1 motor
good friends and good weed
writing reading and thinking
slicing the fabric of time and making a dress of it
http://www.imeem.com/jukeboxmusic19/music/wR3lI6oZ/mirah-exactly-where-were-from/
This isnt permanent
Life is all too transient
and I am happy
people are at best seasonal
which is good considering my soul likes this weather
i listen to love songs
bc i love songs
and i feel every word
bc i know
my love will come
so i wait patiently
patient like im at Rhode Island Ave Station
in the best weather
with the sweetest breeze
waiting for the last train
bc i know it will come
so until then, i talk to the people around me
observe the people on the streets
busying themselves with endless task
watching the other trains open close
come and go
and i'll be at peace
" I like it soft
i like it wet
i like my makeup in a mess
so i cry hard
let it fall
and i wont stop until my tears are all shed
SO HAPPY
SO HAPPY
SO HAPPY"
--lykke li "Let it Fall"
19 pounds lighter
and free from expectations
demands
and therefore dissapointment
i realized that i can shed my skin
and that skin is in the form of people
so many people
i love from a distance
bc they are miserable
i aint the type of company they should keep
cause i'll be too easy and breezy
to truly give a fuck
and thats the truth,
but i digress...
Since I originally deactivated my facebook
my motto has been
self discovery through introspection
and this summer will be a journey indeed
4 wheels and 1 motor
good friends and good weed
writing reading and thinking
slicing the fabric of time and making a dress of it
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