I wish there was a way that I could explain...

But I feel that a lot of people wont get it.
Whenever i start, I lose most people. or people think I'm crazy
And its hard to explain to people whose minds are not open bc there are several pieces to be put together before the understanding of it is even possible. Most people are not ready or able to suspend their conventional beliefs of reality, existence, and physicality. I'm gonna attempt to make this make sense. If not to you then maybe more to me. The congruence between every aspect of our reality is so evident and so pervasive that we are not even aware of it. but if for two seconds we separate the I from self, the present from the occurring, we could see that peace is not something that is achieved, but recognized. That Harmony is not something we create, but acknowledge. Everything in the universe comes from the balance of two opposing forces that are balanced bc they are equally opposite. Their journey of separation and recognition, transcendence and imminence, is the rhythm of everything that exist.

my next few blog will go more into the crazy shit i talk about. i pray you feel me...

They dont know you like i do. They'll never know you

Im riding the bus back to ny
listening to paranoid
i love kanye
i love ny
i love these headphones
i love the bolt bus
i love traveling at nite
but not as much as i love you

im sorry i had to leave you. you know why.
I made alot of progress over these months.
I was content with the thought of you being gone for a long time
I learned how to deal with the thinking fits,
I learned how to dial other numbers instead of yours
I was numb
I was good
and i pulled the bandaid off
but you can only form a scab from fresh air
so i welcomed it
and now i go back
you there
i here
i thought i would hurt
but i dnt
theres a void
an emptiness
like waking up and the person who fell asleep beside you wasnt there
but i still see your shoes
you havent gone far

i only wonder things i fear asking you
i wonder do we go back to not speaking?
do we let things be
do we call each other again
does my growth and healing include you in it?
do you need to be gone from me in order for me to be better?
can we continue our lives like the way they were?

*sigh*