Just one of those day, inspired by jennifer patience: January 2008

its just one of those days
when nothing works out
when both of your parents act fucking stupid
and you look for some sort of reprieve in [[her]] arms
but she doesnt want you
doesnt want to
make you better
like she said she would
its one of those days
when you always end up leaving what you need
and you have so much of what you dont
when no one answers their phones
and the ones that do answer too late
or dont want you either
its one of those days where you feel super fat
where happiness is always dangling in front of you but
elegantly out of reach
where nothing works how its supposed to
when you cant do shit rite
but make other people happy
but not yourself
when you finally find a way home
and your room is in shambles
where everyone is apathetic but you
when bitches decided to get a fucking
conscious
out
of
no
where.
Just fuck it.
fuck today.
fuck tmrw
and quite frankly
fuck you.
im tired.
and i have to clean up.
im empty
but i cant fill the crowded void.
and let me not start on the empty space
thats filled with people.
bc were discussing today.
which sucked by the way.