There is No Modern Romance

Many people know
that many of my "friends"
have been shitty friends indeed
i already dnt have the biggest fan club
and this note sure wont make it any better

and the funny thing is, although this note isnt directed to one friend in particular
it kinda is
but it kinda isnt
oh well fuck the technicalities
im just gonna speak from my core.
if you take offense to it
then it was meant for you to.
if it doesnt offend you
then you werent one of the people im talking about


To start
you have unmistakenly woven yourself
into the very fabric of my existence
or more like a bed bug
a colony of bed bugs
in my mattress
my bed pad
my fitted sheet
covers
pillows
dust ruffle
all that shit lol
and so now,
i have to burn my whole damn bed
fuck
but they said, if you lay down with dogs
or bitches in this case
you wake up with fleas

next
i knew you would always be there
but this is dispicable
and i and so many others are dissapointed in you
but i know
you dont give a fuck
so throw away our friendship bond and understanding
please
i always told you i would NEVER make you choose
and thats bc i didnt think i would have to
if i was to ever see him on the street
i would look at him with disgust
bc of the ways he hurt you
and bc i love you
but to take him in
and become his best friend
chill with him on the regular
call him and never call you
when for years i talked shit about how horrible he was to you
would be...
disrespectful
but everyone doesnt think like me
but ive come to terms that everything in my past life has bed bugs
and i cant sleep there if i dnt wanna be in pain the next morning
so like i said
i wont make u choose
i hope u find happiness
hug me wen u see me
and keep it moving
and keep each other

next
i find it so funny that that you all come and go
in and out of my life
when it conviencences you
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
I AM NOT A BACK UP FRIEND
dont run to me bc friendships
that i told you from the beginning were parasitic
and false
turn to shit
lol its crazy to see how many text i get from you now
how my phone rings now
but like i never have,
i wont hold anything against you
but wen yall are good again
and you fade again
make sure your gone for good
bc that hurts me
esp when im ALWAYS there for you
supporting your dreams
being the voice of reason in your life
financing your adventures
even wen i cant finance my own
remember...

next
you dissapeared like it was nothing
so much so to the point where you prob wont read this
and although i said i didnt give a fuck to others
i did
and i miss you
but i guess i didnt fit into your new lifestyle
with your plastic friends
with superficial concerns
so fuck it.

next
i hope drugs havent made me paranoid
but im clearly a laughing stock to the 2 of you
anything different from he norm
is a joke to you
and i felt like you laughed at me and not with me the whole time
i dont live the same way you do
my exterior does not define me
and material things are not my life
so u asked how do i dissapear the way i do...
bc i dnt like to feel like im a fucking joke

i have more to say,
but i wont
ill leave it alone

im only tagging people,
so that the people who need to see it will
so if ur tagged
it more than likely has nothing to do with you....
but you have heard me talk about this before