oh I cant believe I made a desperate plea
Whats wrong with me?
me?
ooooohhhhh
So New Amerykah. Is. The Shit. Like Forreal
I am developing a whole new appreciation and Love for miss E. Badu. her voice is so unique and.... whole. within its self. yeah. I'll see if I can get some playing over there.
So this weekend....
yeah....
Continuing on my metaphysical track....
Clearly I wanted this to happen. The Good, The Bad, and the hurtful
and its becoming clearer and clearer to me what this ultimate goal I am seeking is. I just dont understand why my universe chooses to manifest its desires in the most... extravagant of ways. But maybe it was the only way to get my attention, bc well I ignore my omens.
Speaking of Omens, I had 2 omens today. Im wondering what my third one was/is. The night is still young so it Still may be seen.
Omen 1: Imani in NY
So as I got on the bus to go back to ny with a bruise on my ass from dancing so fucking hard with a person with a sharps ass pelvis bone, and a mind still fresh from the turmoil of the night I hear a dc dom SCREAMING her ass off as she got on the bus. "You talk too much fucking shit. Thats all you do slim. You aint gonna b talking that shit when I fucking get up there." A conversation much like this one takes place at a very uncomfortable volume right beside me for about 2 hours into the trip. And apparently the girl she was talking to was named Imani. And lived in NY. and she was gonna make sure that wen she got all the way to ny she was gonna beat her ass. But the omen for me were the things she said. Things I've heard so many times before. "Oh but Imani thinks shes so fucking perfect" "Fuck you Imani" "I swear to God Imani" "You talk all that shit while your in NY" "I dont wanna talk to you Imani" "Im hanging up Imani" among so many other things. It was eerie and struck a chord in me.
Omen 2: Fucking Tarot Card
Literally years ago I wrote a FB Note about my tarot cards. And everytime i enter act with a certain someone one card in particular ALWAYS and i mean ALFUCKINGWAYS comes up. and I guess it does bc I ignore what it was trying to tell me. Like a few months ago i dropped all my cards out of my purse and the only and first card up was this card. then today (the first time i really read myself since then) wen i take the deck out of the box. out of the fucking box. there is that card right there on the top. now mind you my friend destiny uses my cards all the time so its shuffled often. The card is of course the Change card (most commonly death in traditional decks). I dont have my deck in front of me but bc uve gotten it so much i pretty much know what it says. the card reads :
There are situations from the past that you are being urged to gently let go of. That does not mean you need to be cold or cruel, it just is simply best to release them. "something something something" most difficult decision "yada yada" yet dead wood must be cut from a tree in order for it to grow. once this is done you will be able to have new relationships, new love, and a new life.
Fucking wild rite? I know I need to heed these omens. After reading the alchemist i realized why and how the way things work. and the soul of the world is trying to tell me to let it go. As a matter of fact, I make this other song "I remember" by DEADMAU5 and Kaskade the song on the side. the words to that song have really really gotten me through these times. it says
Feeling the past moving in
Letting a new day begin
Hold to the love that you know
You Dont have to move on to let go
Add to the memory you keep
Remember when you fall alseep
Hold to the time that you know
you dont have to give up to let go
Remember turning on the night
and moving through the morning light
Remember how it was with you
Remember how you pulled me through
I remember
I remember
I remember
I remember
I remember. Do you?
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